Private Eyes
I never noticed until recently that L does NOT make eye contact very often. He’s always looking down or away, hiding those beautiful eyes of his.
Even after his therapist pointed it out, it didn’t register with me. I guess I thought she was talking about his eye contact with OTHER people, not with mommy and daddy. But sure enough, its just as true with us as it is with anyone else.
It occured to me today that maybe this is part of the reason he’s so stuck in the memory of his older sister’s sadness when he had to leave that house. Even though he’s seen her several times, maybe he hasn’t really LOOKED at her, and therefore, still only remembers the sadness. Maybe, I dunno. Its as good a theory as any!
So right now, its my mission to look into those sparkly eyes of his as often as possible, so that he can see the love I have for him. So that he learns that when people see him, they are happy, and full of love for him. So that he doesn’t have to keep the windows to his soul private anymore.
April 19, 2009 No Comments