Today, Wednesday July 30th, about 10am, M and L’s adoption was finalized.

Don’t let the lack of exclamation points fool you – there’s a whole lot of happy dancing going on here.

On Wednesday, our adoption will be finalized.  And the excitement is palpable.  But…

With that, comes a whole mess of feelings that aren’t exactly what you’d call “celebratory”.  L is testing us, to see if we’ll really follow through.  And when we do, if we’ll really be good parents, or parents who hurt him again.  M is afraid she’ll never see her sister again.  N is wondering if he can really be a big brother to two kids who make him a little (or a lot) crazy.

Then there’s all the stress related to family coming for the court date, and the party we’re throwing on Saturday.

So while we’re very happy, and relieved, we’re also having to manage some less than happy emotions.